today

i have a heart, i have a soul. i have feeling. i find beauty in the simplest, most futile of things. i take each breath knowing that there is more to come, be it bad or good. hoping for good, but knowing good cannot come with some bad along the way. there will always be good to cancel out bad. and trust me, i know. i've seen a lot of fucking bad in my 17 years. in my home, in my friends lives. it hurts me so much every time, but i know it has to come in order for something amazing to follow.

i spoke to a friend not long ago, and it amazed me how so much has changed between us. a secret was shared and tears were shed. i couldn't believe how much had been hidden for so long. it made me want to destroy anyone who would bring so much pain to someone so special. this is life, nevertheless. found in pain, found love.

i needed this. so much. the rain is washing away the past. the rain is washing you out of my hair. out of my mind. a good cry is always needed to find the biggest smiles.

i am so proud of everything right now. a video, a song, and two humans are all it made for me to realize i need to make some changes. i thank you so very much.

tomorrow is a new day. i have a heart. i have a soul. i have more feeling than you could imagine.

words can't explain.

love always.